I keep dreaming death and it happens for real.
I don't consider myself a psychic. In fact, I'm atheist and I always believed in science.
But I keep having precognitive dreams. At first I considered them to be pure coincidences.
But they kept happening more often, and getting worse. The first time I doubted science it was when my soul cat died. I had vivid, beautiful visitation dreams, flickering lights, and many other signs that showed he was still there. After this event precognitive dreams started. I dreamed that my boyfriend died in a car crash. One week later he had a car crash. He miraculously didn't die, but the car completely disintegrated.
Then I dreamed that my neighbor died. He died of pneumonia one day later.
I dreamed that my pet pigeon died, he died that night (he was very old and had CHF)
I even dreamed my own death, during an helicopter flight, we hit power lines and I got decapitated. Never flew since.
The last dream I had, I dreamed that I killed my pet Kiwi. I just wormed her. The day after, she got sick with roundworm toxicity. The next night, I dreamed I was hearing a song, and a voice told me this song had to be played at Kiwi's funeral. The next day I listened to the song because I wasn't sure I remembered the title correctly, but I did, and that was the song. She passed while I was listening to this song, a few hours prior the vet appointment.
I don't want to have this power. It's giving me depression, anxiety and ptsd. I never believed in paranormal. And this makes things even worse. I need help but there is no support for these things in my country, if I talk about my issues they'll think I'm a psycho. I started drinking and I'm about to ask my doctor for some anti depressants. How do you cope?