Student problems
I’m about half way done with my apprenticeship, and I’m really struggling. It’s part of the program to give and receive massages from the other students, which was fine. But I’m extremely sensitive (20 years in healthcare has fried my nervous system, and I also have fibromyalgia). Receiving massages in the student clinic leaves me completely frazzled, anxious, and in pain. All my fellow students are so heavy handed. And as a SA survivor, the “requirement” part of the whole situation is triggering AF. The massages are objectively fine, it’s literally just me that is the problem. Is there a way to make the process maybe less vulnerable? I don’t know how to be more sturdy emotionally while I’m naked under a thin sheet around people I don’t really like. I’ve almost finished paying for this program, and I’m depending on a future as a massage therapist. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!