10/05/2026 How is my mother doing?
I don’t think I like the idea of a diary but I like this community. I don’t like the aspect of rehashing what I have already experienced during the writing/stating process, but that’s what’s needed to include others in this instance, here goes nothing…
So today my mother came back from church, parked her car in our garage, and stepped into her room where she happily found our Mother’s Day presents gift bagged. She was genuinely happy and grateful for them, adoring us for them. She even wanted pictures with the gifts.
After this moment of the gift receiving she generally went about the house getting busy with cooking and changing what she was wearing. This is when she started relaying how church was today which she always does.
The thing is with that, is that she reports on church to either tell us how many people were at church and how she did with doing screen projection from the church laptop. She thinks that people are technologically ahead of her and that she is technologically inferior or old school so it’s a big deal to do the laptop work well without mistakes every time it’s her turn on a Sunday.
Today, there was a problem with the overall projector that her and her roster teammates picked up before church started. She told two of her friends, two church ladies at the church, about the projector issue troubling them as part of conversation as they arrived, and one of them said to her, “Njalo makwenza wena hlezi kungenzeki,” or “Everytime that you do it, there’s always a problem.”
My mother has been telling me this and that she felt her heart squashed. When the projector got fixed and it was time for her to do the laptop work, she prayed that she does not make one mistake, lest she be judged.
She is now thinking and thinking about the words from her age mate, and she has even shared, “What if the rest of the church members think the same thing?”
I know my mother and she is affected by insecurity, but she did ask me if what that lady said to her would not affect me, would not bother me too?
I always try to think of a way I can make her more at ease and peaceful. I tried in some way to say that she might have been joking or bantering. And I also said if she feels hurt she should acknowledge and accept that, which is something I said because I approached that she was trying to deny her feelings or thinking that she was overreacting, and I have learned to accept our feelings as they are from online psychotherapy/spirituality.
I just hope her day was not completely ruined. She has since then went out to go get her hair done and she’s seen her male friend and went out so I hope she feels good.
Well that’s me - A
I hope this worked as a diary entry. I think I also took a liking in the process of it, explaining what happened and explaining my day, and I might involve this approach to writing about myself, my internal world and my day in my journal.