I am burnt out due to being overwhelmed by supplements so and I have reached my breaking point too many time
I dont know how to begin this because its a small thing but I have been absolutely losing my mind over it. As i have mentioned in my other posts I live in a country where very few adhd meds are available and my experience with the meds here is just bad (ritalin and atomoxetine didnt work) and no ssri or wellbutrin has had zero effect on my anxiety and depression. I am already struggling in uni due to all my symptoms and grades are already terrible. Due to this i recently got into the hell hole of supplements bcz i saw from reels and reading ppls experience on them on how it fixed their ADHD etc etc. Due to this i obssessed with buying every supplement. At the moment i have vit d, zinc, magnesium glyc, vit b, fish oil and creatine.
But the issues that comes up is that there are so many supplements that are not available like NAC (n acetyl cysteine ), choline, l theanine, etc etc which makes me feel like I am always one step behind fixing my adhd and i HATE it so so so much. And the ones that are available are so expensive that whenever i have to ask my family to buy me the supplements which feels like a heartattack and leads to my brain just overthinking into oblivion because i constantly feel guilty because so much money has been wasted on so many therapy sessions, medicines, psychiatrist visit, repeating uni courses after which my brains feels like it will explode. Whenever the supplements are about to end I feel so worried and on edge because i do not want to do the confrontation of asking my family each month. I dont make money on my own because my condition has made me lifeless
I recently had my finals as well and they sucked and just everything feels shit and I am so burnt out with the idea of just existing.