u/AndieDandie1

Hi yall,💕

I've in recovery for a radical hysterectomy and I'm in my 4th week, everyday feels like Groundhogs Day the movie and the pandemic days, rolled into one, but I've had a few days to think and reflect on my past 10 ( probably 12) years when perrimenopause started to hold me in it's claws/cluches.

I remember besides my physical issues I was feeling lost, not myself, I remember I started drinking sometimes, which was odd because I never touched alcohol much at all beforehand.

I remember feeling like I wanted to get in my car and drive away, far away from my life, I wanted to start over and be a different person. I asked for a separation from my husband of 14 years at the time, who was absolutely devastated when I said " I just can't stand to be here anymore , I don't even want to look at you".

I went through so much soul searching, I thought I needed a huge change and I considered quitting my job and running away from it all starting over somewhere else.

My anxiety and depression was off the chain. Somehow, I started praying and getting closer to a spiritual point, over those years I pulled myself up and started concentrating on other things besides how I was feeling all the time. I was still in a weird physical misery where I wasn't sure if I was dying I was always in pain but the point of this all is this :

I've been seeing a few friends and other people I have known over the years some of my younger friends doing these wild radical things, quitting their jobs, getting divorced, meeting guys (or gals) on the internet and they swear these people are their soulmates, they needed this change they were going insane..

I understand all of this, and I weirdly experienced most of it myself.

But, something told me to hang onto the life I had, I took time off and took a break from my husband.

I came back to my marriage and my family my job, I went back to school and I'm finishing my Masters degree.

Had a huge health scare recently and I had to get everything removed including my ovaries I had/have endometriosis stage 4 and it was pre cancerous, my surgeon said it looked like something blew up in there, and it was bad. I'm thankful I got it all done. The real point I'm trying to make here is, if you're feeling how I felt back then :

Maybe don't rush into a new life that you're feeling like you got to get into, maybe don't quit your job and don't follow your heart full of wonderlust.

Maybe give yourself some grace and realize you're going through a life altering experience.

People don't talk about this part of menopause/perrimenopause it might not affect as many women this way as I'm even thinking it does, I see and have seen this happen so many times and it almost consumed me. I'm definitely not saying it's not possible to be in a bad marriage and a bad career of course it is, all I'm saying is maybe, maybe it's this fog or filter that is influencing these desisions and they are not exactly your decisions that you would have made under other circumstances.

I wish you all health and happiness I'm so happy that I'm post menopausal now. I got there from surgery, but I'm happy I made it here with the same husband, same family, same job... That was meant to be for me, I hope yall find relief and happiness on the other side of this, weather you needed those radical changes or not 💕💪🙏

I went to pick up an online order, and I saw a few new fragrances on display I had to rush around to smell a couple the Neapolitan is so delicious!

I was browsing my app to see about my rewards today and I saw Cotton Candy Clouds!

WTH, I completely missed that one did not even see it in my store, if it was there it was hidden well.

This honestly sounds right up my alley, but I'm afraid to blind buy, can someone give me an honest review that has smelled it?

TIA😊💕

Hi all, I'm exactly 4 weeks post op today, I had a total hysterectomy with bilateral salpingo-oophorectomy and stage 4 endometriosis bowel and pelvic wall excisions.

I have over the last few nights experienced this " phantom tampon" from my cuff healing & I know that's a real legit sensation I've looked it up, but here's the weird thing I'm noticing about the same time every night is when it's happening to me.

I'd say long about 9 PM or so, it will go on up til I fall asleep and I wake up and I don't usually feel it hardly through the day and it will do it again that night in the same pattern which seems weird to me? Feels kinda like a dry ache or something a bit, not having any bleeding or discharge really just a discomfort that feels like a tampon is halfway stuck or something. Anyone else further out from cuff healing that might notice this sensation still or do yall notice it at night?

I have some "vajmahal " estrogen cream from the Dr that I have been told not to insert til my cuff is fully healed but I already got the rx for it, last night I just rubbed a bit on the outside of it, not anything internally I guess that seems to calm it down somewhat, I do know since I don't have overies anymore my hormone situation has gone to the depths of hell rather quickly and I am on the lowest dosage of Estrodol patch and 100 mg progesterone, and come to think of it I do take my progesterone at the same time every night 8:30 PM so I'm not sure if that has any influence on feeling my cuff healing more at night?

Just curious who has experience with this weird sensation, and if you too have only really felt it at nighttime?

,, 🤷🙏♥️