Advice needed on how to respond to MIL for mother's day
Hubby and I have been TTC for 3 years and haven't had much luck. We are currently taking a break after our first failed ivf cycle.
MIL is a very devoted Christian, whereas hubby is agnostic and I consider myself a Christian but do not really attend church. My MIL usually only wishes for one thing for mother's day, which is that we go with her and fil to church as a family on Sunday.
Unfortunately, as much I don't want it to be, mother's day is particularly triggering for me. The last 2 mother's days have resulted in me bursting into tears during church service (like ugly crying) and feeling extremely embarrassed and emotionally fragile afterward. I promised myself last year that if she asked us to go this year that I would politely decline, skip the church service and just meet them for brunch afterwards. I would also ask hubby to go and represent on our behalf (he doesn't mind attending church in support of me or his family).
Well the invite was received today and I need help. I am not good with words or standing up for myself. Whilst I know my MIL will not force me, I know she will be disappointed (the woman is one of the kindest people I know but this is really important to her). Can someone help me word my excuse and apology please?