u/Annual-Compote-579

hey everyone, Im currently waiting on an appointment to get fully assessed and diagnosed and I have alr gone to the doctor twice to show examples of my coordination and also answer questions abt symptoms and I’ve been currently fighting an on and off battle with my mind and feeling sometimes suicidal due to messing up on hands on things and getting treated like I’m too lazy to get it right and also having family members that are still rough on me even after they’ve found out I may have dyspraxia and the 2 attempts I’ve had on my life only failed because I was too clumsy to fully cut through my skin with enough grip and stability I just need some advice and conversations right now

when i run and try to do the kick back thing they do when striding it looks awkward but when i dont force it i look even more weird