u/Anxious-Try1120

Hey guys this is the second time i've gotten home between 8 and 9 in the morning, on the one hand it's a lot of fun, on the other hand it's hell. Mentally i feel like i'm in hell because i know what awaits me after my 3 hours of sleep and i probably need some advice on how to cope with it. I couldn't find a alcohol tester to find out how i'm doing... but what i do know is that i have a really bad stomach and even as an emetophobe (a phobia of vomiting) i have the urge to stick my fingers down my throat... I'm really unhappy that I did it again.

I'm shaking so bad😭 I drank a little alcohol yesterday and now I have a mild hangover, but that's not the point, I wanted to take magnesium because I'm a little dizzy and the pills are really big, I didn't have a problem swallowing pills no matter how big, but now I couldn't do it because of the hangover and the giant pill got stuck in my throat and I started to gag like crazy, I was close to throwing up and in the end it stayed down. Now I feel really sick, I want to cry, my throat is tight and my stomach hurts, I'm afraid I'm going to throw up now because it irritated my stomach. I'm so upset that it didn't come out, my body and head are making it much scarier, it hurts when I hold back the vomiting and it's probably much worse than if I actually vomited.