u/Any-End7416

an innuendo
That’s all it took.
All I want is to miss you—
to miss this.
As beads of sweat
pour out of my pores,
as minutes turn into hours
in which every thought I have
formed, malformed, misinformed.
In which I thought.
For which I think.
Who am I
with or without you?
I am all yours,
regardless of taste,
regardless of how disingenuous
all of which we stand for
and with.
I am yours.
Forever grateful to myself
for being a part of the journey
which guided the way—
the light.
The streaming colors
of red, blue, green,
yellow, and purple.
I know now
that I am the part of you
that you will bleed for.
The part of you
that you will miss
in every misinformed step,
every mistake,
every properly planted foot
into the soil
of who and what
you will become.
I am you
as much as
I am yours.
Forever intertwined
in the universe built
within the consciousness
of everlasting silence,
of the stars
in which we grasp
our little moments
of tranquil stillness.
We are.
Ours.

Just a quick summary i got a mk3 jetta original issue was crank no start honestly this is my first project and im feeling kinda helpless. i replaced the fuel pump ignition coil crank position sensor and ran all of the codes on it and im sorta still on square one. and im gonna be completely honest im posting this for a wee bit of help. it cranks it backfires occasionally i cant really pinpoint the source of it. and when i crank it. engine seems to be getting fuel. i even went out of the way one of these days to spray some startup spray right in the intake manifold to see if it would turn over for that. it didnt. i ran the codes on it and it threw a fucking instrument cluster code and the speedo bounces when the key is turned to accessories or cranking. honestly i really love the car its been in my family for 30 years and i really want to see it running again after sitting for forever but im really stuck. this weekend im going to be pulling the distributor and trying to time it. if anyone knows anything i don’t PLEASE give me a helping hand here. as far as i know it should be a timing or sensor issue. nothing fuel related as the start up spray wouldve done something.

I spent years trying to seek
one who had never come.

but the truth is,
i never had to seek
because i had yet become
who i had to become.

and when that one came
i let it pass,

for some men are the epitome of destruction,
and some men are the embodiments
of hope and beauty.

for i am a prophet,
the speaker of words
that embody
the pieces of me
i left in you.

confidentially
i am part of you,
for i am beauty.

i am the breath
of every cigarette
you yearn
to bring into your lungs.

every drop of blood
running down the creases of your palms,
every breath
that passes deeply
into your soul.

i am the ridges of the mountains
you have forever sought
to bring into your vision.

for you are to me
as i am to a man—
the epitome of destruction.

the desire
that designed the heart.

the desire for love.

the desire for pain
i have instilled into you.

ode to a beautiful girl.

ode, to a woman—
for i am, to you,
as the trees are to breath:

we speak nothingness
into the vast emptiness of your heart
that i have filled

not because i am the man
who passed you,

but because
i am the boy
who has let you pass through me.

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*i would love some constructive criticism and interpretations. as i put a ton of care and effort into this piece specifically and i want to share that raw emotion with everyone who is interested.*