u/AnyBuffalo6132

I'm a one big failure, her ringing on my doorbell is the only dream I have.

I'm a 19yo failure and I feel like my life has ended before it even started. I'm not a real NEET and I'm not pretending to be one. I have a job, but tbh it's the only reason I leave my house. The relations with my family are down the drain and I have no friends. After I come home from work mostly I just watch stuff on my computer and sleep. Meeting a person like Misaki is the only possible way out, I know what opinion a part of the fanbase has about her, but tbh I don't care. I just want to be loved, her manga version is not a problem to me. Even if she was manipulative, I'd appreciate being loved and someone just caring about me. The only everyday relations I have are people from my workplace, and it makes me sad to hear them talk about their relationships, families and fun stuff they do everyday. I've been this way ever since I can remember, I remember feeling exactly the same back in high school. I was bullied and made fun of the whole time I was there. Misaki is someone I could rely on, vent to and just spend time with.