The unspoken difficulty of quitting (17M)
Hello, ive been nicotine free for 6 weeks now and id like to share the difficulty and genuine pain of trying to quit.
I used to do black cubas about 4-7 puches a day for about a year and a half varying on my mental state and many other things. Simply said i would consider myself strongly addicted.
That being said i think the main reason i find the withdrawal so unbearably painful and difficult is because i started so early. Doing such a stimulant from such a young age can and WILL fuck your brain up.
To sum up all of the withdrawal symptoms i have here are most of them:
Fast shifts between increased and decreased heart rate, strong sweating, cold sweats, vomiting(rare), strong headaches, steady mental decline, bugs crawling under my skin, insomnia, urges to replace nicotine with other drugs, suicidal thoughts (passive and already backed with my diagnosed anxienty, panic attacks and depression), blurred vision, worsened memory and general decline of my well being.
Thats most of the things i could think of in this moment.
Ive been trying my best to not give in to the urges but i strongly dont believe i will be able to keep it up once school starts again.
Please give me any advice you have to make this experience less unbearable