Advice for a good trip
Spravato has given me my life back. Unfortunately, every time I take it I fall into the worst near k hole and feel like I'm suffocating for the duration of the trip and vivid thoughts of death/religion/existence have existential dread for the rest of the day.
I have been working with a therapist about these thoughts and concepts even though I have never been religious nor had religious trauma. And I do appreciate that I come out of the trip with some sentimental meaning about life which may have helped me try new things and work hard to beat depression.
But damn the trip itself is traumatizing to me and draining that I have to do every week.
I have been on 56mg and only once a week per my doctor because the trips have been so awful I can't go only a few days between. I have only had 1 good trip out of ~25 where I ate a full meal right beforehand (I know I know) and 1 dose that didn't do anything. The meal only helped one time.
Any advice?