Help- has anyone recovered from being lost in btech? How did you recover?
Hi guys,
I’m 20F and I honestly feel lost right now.
Around 5 years ago, I used to be really cheerful, outgoing, energetic, and extroverted. My studies were average but decent, and I used to enjoy interacting with people and going out.
Then BTech happened.
During college I got my own phone and laptop, had a very small friend circle, and slowly became extremely lazy and isolated. I got addicted to doomscrolling and staying on my phone all day. My sleep schedule became terrible too. Earlier I used to sleep at 1–2 AM, but now it’s become 4–5 AM almost every day.
My academics got really bad. I failed 4 subjects. I keep trying to study, but I can barely focus for 20 minutes before going back to my phone or procrastinating in some other way. I’ve tried different study methods, productivity tricks, schedules, etc., but nothing seems to stick.
The worst part is that I don’t even feel interested in things anymore. Sometimes when I sit down to study, I start thinking about my life, my future, my purpose, and honestly I feel empty. It feels like I’ve mentally given up, even though I don’t want to.
My family situation is also not good right now, and I’m in my 4th year with no internship or job offer yet. I also have only 1 year left before graduation, and I genuinely feel like I have no proper skills and barely any BTech knowledge.
I genuinely want to change and get my life back together, but I don’t know where to start anymore.
So I wanted to ask: Am I just being lazy, or does this sound like my mental health is messed up?
Has anyone else gone through something similar and managed to recover? Any suggestions would really help.