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After asking about doing so in previous post.

And surprise surprise, it dramatically upped the intensity. So much so that it has changed my perception of the drug

Protocol:
- 4MG Ondansetron (anti nausea)
- Wait 30 mins
- 2 400MG root beer flavored ketamine troches
Blind fold + clean sheets + Brian Eno “Discreet Music” on repeat

Swished for 30 mins, and swallowed the lot

What followed was what most would characterize as a “bad trip”, from my POV a “challenging trip”

It was as though someone grabbed my consciousness by the back of the neck and ran it through the psychological ringer

Not an ego death type of thing. Just an onslaught of this than this than this than this than this than this. Not memories, or feelings, or anxieties. Just raw/strange consciousness and a slight sense of journey

The thisness not quite communicable partly because it’s hard to find words, but mostly because there was no time to get my bearings and sit with something long enough

On the whole the theme was that of real confusion. Peppered throughout were lucid moments where I thought to myself “oh this must be what psychosis is like”

Fortunately I did not panic, and I do not believe that my experience was a result of me resisting or fighting off the effects of the ketamine

If anything, I do feel confident after the fact knowing that i can enter these situations without entering into a fight or flight reaction

I’m writing this a few hours after the come down, and despite the grim reporting above I have to say I do feel quite at ease. As if my psyche had a good workout/stretch. Along with a bit of gratitude for normal waking consciousness

Mostly writing this to collect my thoughts. Also a kind of PSA that its important to titrate up and normalize that sometimes it’s not always rainbows and sunshine

But also curious for those more seasoned than I:

- Do you think a bad/challenging trip is just par for the course every now and then?

- Do you think if I’d taken more it would be different? The analogy of cruising altitude and dosage for psychedelics comes to mind. Perhaps I got caught in low altitude turbulence. I feel like IV session would be the wise choice in that scenario and that RDT gets a bit sloppy at these higher doses

- Any other thoughts/feelings/anecdotes?

Hey there. Planning on trying out an at home treatment plan in near future.

Would appreciate some guidance/anecdotes on how to approach the K experience(s) as I’ve never tried it

For context, I’m someone who has benefited from the handful of psychedelic experiences I’ve had (mushrooms, acid) but they still scare the hell out of me

Often times I really need to psych self up to get ready to face my interiority.

Do the at home doses (tablets) warrant this trepidation? Should I come ready to do deep work? Or is that only for the bigger injectable doses? Secondly is it even worth the light weight doses, or is the juice really in the deep work that comes from higher dose.

Any help in orienting to this experience would be great