LSD helped me break habits I didn't even know I had.
I know I'm posting this from my main account. I hope I remember to set my Reddit up for this subreddit to not show up in my profile. Obviously, I don't want people who I know to assume I have anything to do with any not-socially-acceptable substance.
The other way around though, for people to find my online presence from this post? Sure, go ahead, I don't care. Maybe if you want to stop by to say hello, that's fine with me. I'd love to hear other people's perspectives, after all.
Anyways, I hereby declare to have never done any illegal substances in my life, and that this post is simply a fictional story about someone who had a great LSD experience. This someone I refer to by the first person perspective here. Even though, you know, they're totally not actually me.
Alright. With that out of the way.
I make this post as a sort of "fuck you" to my old patterns of thinking. I always viewed myself as being special of some sorts. Quite paradoxically, even though I used to hate myself, at the same time I also had a sort of superiority complex towards others. I hope that, with this, I have finally come terms with the fact that I'm just a regular human being just like everyone else is. I hope to have learnt that I'm able to just do things in my life without the need for constant validation from other people.
LSD taught me about habits I didn't even know I had. The biggest habit I have found myself in is distraction. For instance, I always found myself to be looking at my phone for longer than I'd like to, just because I wouldn't like to face the fact that I don't have the motivation to do anything more meaningful. I know I have free will, but thus far I've not felt like I have made great use of it. I'm not saying that I've made the wrong decisions in my life, nor am I suggesting that there are none that I regret; it is rather that I feel like I have not made enough of them in my past, and that I have instead been continuously working to avoid having to make them in the first place.
Science and innovation allows us to thrive in ways we could never even hope to dream of otherwise. I used to think that science was dead. I mean, we know so much about the world as-is anyways. If one were asked to name an influential scientist of a certain field, one would probably find it a lot easier to name humans that have lived in the past couple hundred of years, than it is to name people who are alive today. However, I instead think this to be a symbol for the idea that we're still only really at the beginning of actually figuring things out properly.
A fact I like to think about is that there is a tendency for people in wealthy regions to report to be paradoxically less happy than those who live in less fortunate conditions. I believe that this might have to do with the idea that just like how any ordinary tool may be misused, technological innovation may in a similar way be misused as a form of distraction rather than for growth. I believe that only once we are able to understand both the capabilities and the dangers of a modern-day innovation, whether that innovation is our mobile phone or an illegal substance, we are able to make the most of it.
This substance gave me a way to shatter the well-built echo chambers I often didn't even realize I was stuck inside, and it gave me the motivation I had always been looking for, to do something about the issues I have always just been shoving to the side and distracting myself from instead.
Responsible use for any drug is important. In the case of LSD, I was prepared for what I was getting myself into. I always made it a personal goal for me to try to be as responsible as I can with any substance I allow to cross the blood-brain-barrier. However, I am also aware of the times when I have not succeeded in keeping it that way. After all, there is a narrow belt between something that simply feels amazing versus something that begins to ruin your life from the very first time you try it.
I know that LSD is not magic. Personally, I find it is a way to get me into a mindset I otherwise find difficult to reach. Ego death allows one to make unbiased opinions of one's own life without expectations or norms in the way. It's a way to truly open one's mind.
LSD works in two distinct phases, and for me, that is part of the charm. From my experience, the first phase may simply be used to feel a certain kind of unique magic that is otherwise unreachable to a sober mind, while the second phase showers one with countless of chaotic thoughts and ideas, where it's one's own job to find the meaningful ones hidden in between.
The ideas that make up this post are a result of, essentially, two trips of 200ug each. The attached image is from my first trip with a dose this high in the Austrian Salzkammergut area. I find it absolutely gorgeous there and I'm also grateful for it to not be far. I can only advise people who live in other parts of the world to travel here and to come check it out for themselves. I also want to mention that this place is, in fact, made up of more than just Hallstatt.
As a little bit of advice, just like how in writing you often go with the flow, when trippin' balls you should also simply go with the flow. However, also make sure to take something with you to write any potential thoughts down to, just in case you do. And when you do, don't worry if they may come out a little chaotically at first. After all, hidden amongst all of this chaos, you may find a priceless gem.