Day 53 update, had the worst craving of my entire "quit" yesterday
Posted here about a week ago at day 45. Wanted to give an update because yesterday fucking tested me in a way I didn't expect.
Was out with some friends, stressed from work, tired. Someone pulled out a pouch and offered me one and for a split second I genuinely considered it. After 53 days. Thought I was past this shit.
I said no. Went to the bathroom, sat there for like 3 minutes just breathing. Craving passed, walked back out.
That's the thing nobody tells you, the cravings don't disappear completely, they just become manageable. And when a big one hits after weeks of nothing it almost catches you off guard because you forgot what it felt like. Scared the shit out of me honestly.
But I made it through and woke up this morning at day 53 feeling more proud of myself than I have in years. That one moment of saying no felt bigger than the entire first week somehow.
Gym is still 5 days a week. Hit a new PR on bench yesterday which is kind of ironic given how close I came to throwing everything away the night before. My body is responding in ways I genuinely didn't think were possible.
Money saved is at $380 now. Watching that number go up never gets old.
If you're on day 20, 30, 40 don't get fucking complacent. The cravings will come back and try to catch you off guard. But you're stronger than you think. I proved that to myself yesterday.
Not going back. QUIT WHILE YOU CAN!!!
