Problems with subsidized housing
I moved to a new city and went to a shelter. I was looking to rebuild my life but had nothing. No money, no car, no family, no friends, I knew no one in this city, I wasn't familiar with the city, and no partner. I was completely lonely with nothing. I had tunnel vision regarding employment, I had a desire to land a job. I made that known to the staff at the shelter and they said they'd help me with bus passes to work. Also, I had no clothes and one pair of shoes. Anyhow, they helped with nothing. When I did go to clothing closets from people who donated clothes I had to carry all of the clothes on the bus and was the only one doing this as I pay attention to my surroundings. When I moved the home was furnished with used items, then I got a bed voucher and my case worker and I had to get the bed into the apartment ourselves. My problem is that I wasn't set up for success. Ideally I would've gotten my place, then the case worker would say here are two 30 day bus passes for you to get what you need like clothes, food, find a job and get to work.
Then provided me with resources for work or even shared some places I could apply for, basically actually help me secure a job. Instead everything was made harder for me and I'm dealing with mental health issues on top of all of this. No therapist helped, no psych wards either., no generic medicine they kept giving me. Imagine suffering 24/7. Okay so, I ended up having to constantly worry about food, this looked like walking from food pantries with as much as I can carry or take on the bus as much as I could carry. Which means I'm not really getting the food I need. Once I even went hungry for 5 days and literally almost died, still no help. They are so cold saying they can't help. I was without lights and got water more than once in the cold, once for 3 or 4 months. They moved me to a new apartment but I'm still having trouble, I can't grocery shop because I have brain fog and am scatter brained. I do what I can to feed myself, though.
I have no energy and am trying to figure out what to do or what I'm missing. I've worked at the airport, dominos,as a Direct Support Professional and Dunham's Sporting goods store since I've been here but all of those jobs were short lived because of my mental issues and I just can't do the job. One job I didn't look presentable enough for. When I worked at Amazon here I took the bus, then walked 30 minutes up a dirt road with high grass and no side walk just to get to work. Just so people wont call me lazy. I suffer at home everyday just wanting to call it quits. I don't how many days I can say I didn't know what id eat or only at chips. My apartments have been broken into. My case worker won't move me by the way. Once I came home from work all of my items that were folded at the top of my closet were no longer folded and scattered across the shelf, with my bag on the opposite side of the closet. I had asked the manager and the manager said it was pest control then checked the list f units pest control visited and mine wasn't there. Then the manager called pest control and they said it wasn't them, so I called the police. When the police arrived they asked maintenance and maintenance said it was them because a company randomly showed up and they had to check wires in my unit.
I had just talked to the manager about 10 minutes before the police arrived and the manager said nothing to me about this. They didn't give me proper notice. I recently received a package and I checked the delivery on the website and the worker took a photo when they delivered it, the package was closed, when I got to it the package was opened with the item still inside. I have gone months without clean clothes or covers because I had no money and no way to wash the things and when I did they said take the bus to do laundry. My hair hasn't been presentable enough to land a job either. My case worker is now playing games? She gave me the number for her coworker who works at a different office than she does for bus passes if I needed them, I used to be able to walk to his office to get them but I moved so I can't walk there anymore and lost his number. She gave me his number again.
Then I told her id need her to bring me the bus pass, as she brings small bags of mostly canned goods (don't have a can opener so I use a knife to open the cans) and paperwork she needs me to sign. She then says "as you know we don't give out bus passes." So I call the office and her coworker says shed bring me one, then said I'm throwing her coworker under the bus because I said how I'm confused about if they have them or not. She then goes back on her word saying she can't bring it and she doesn't "think" they have any right now. Made me call her back instead of calling me back after finding out if they had any or not. I have absolutely no help and wanted to see if someone here would tell me what to do. If you have questions I'm willing to answer them. Location: Lansing, Michigan.