First time doing shrooms
Pre warning sorry for the long read and saying like so much!
I took shrooms for the first time at the start of March and it was the scariest thing I’ve ever gone through but it was so interesting, one of my friends I’ll call her Alana had done them loads of times before and my other friend I’ll call her Alex she’s never done them before either, it was meant to be just me and Alana so we got chocolates they were .5 grams each and I think we had like 6 of them or something and then when Alex was coming we needed to get more but the dude wasn’t answering so Alana’s boyfriend just had like actual mushrooms in his house but we didn’t really know how much was there. We went down to her mobile home in Wexford to do them and initially we took 1 and a half chocolates and like a few of the mushrooms we put them in cups and drank them. They started seeing like the walls moving and stuff and I just wasn’t feeling anything like I felt different but the walls weren’t moving and then eventually when I’d close my eyes I could like see the music and stuff it was really cool and after about an hour they were still like pretty lit into it and I felt sober so I took more of the drinkable mushrooms, they tasted so bad and I got sick straight away and assuming they were gone from my system I ate another piece of chocolate, then we were sitting there for about half an hour and we remembered we had a joint so we went out and smoked that. That’s when it all went so downhill. Straight away I just completely snapped couldn’t see anything just like mad shit didn’t know if I was standing or sitting was freaking out my friends were like Aisling are you okay but Alex was like really chill vibe sitting down sleepy and alanah was kinda having a bad trip too bcos last time she done them her boyfriend was like sent to hospital cos he collapsed and broke his nose so she was thinking about that. I then sat down and I wasn’t even in the room anymore I was in a time loop, it was like a 20 scene time loop and every cut scene k would wake up and not realise and then realise what was happening and like panic and try “figure out” and it would cut to the next scene, every scene I would figure out more and try like “find the key” I was getting really stressed out cos I was trying to like ground myself by saying my name who I was with my age and then like try remember memories I had to try say like look this is just mushrooms this isn’t real but then the more I told myself these things the more o thought they weren’t real and I was just the time loop there was no such thing as me and whoever was doing this to me was putting these fake memories in my head and fake person to try torture me. At one point I snapped out of it in the bathroom with alana and she was like what’s wrong what’s wrong but she was sending me splats and I was like I can’t go back there it’s gonna happen again IGS gonna happen again and it did. Again and again. It didn’t feel like seconds or hours or days it just felt like forever the same scenes over and over and over. Eventually I opened my eyes I was on the couch and I knew it was over but I was too scared to close my eyes again incase it happened. Alex was asleep on the couch so me and alanah went into the bed and she was asking me what happened and I couldn’t even tell her bcos I didn’t know what was real and what wasn’t, I told them the next day then and I felt a bit weird the next day but nothing crazy.
Since then it was awful what I experienced but I was so interested and I wanted to do them again and not take as much cos I think we took about 3.5 grams each which is of course so much for a first time. That was 2 months ago and I’ve honestly been so fine since.
Then on Friday night just went me and a few of my friends were in my house just drinking and at around half 2 Alana’s boyfriend and his friends came over and were smoking weed out my back garden, I haven’t smoked since then but I’ve always smoked weed since I was about 15 not all the time but like once or twice every few months I’ve never gone splats from it ever (other then when i did the mushrooms) I had about 8 drags of it and I went inside and straight away I knew sometning was wrong and I was feeling the same way I did on the mushrooms, there was 8 people in my sitting room and I knew I had to remove myself from the situation so I went into my front room with my dog and nothing felt real again I was feeling my dogs curls to see if they were real and I was like why is there an animal in my house and time started looping again exactly like on the mushrooms it was like I was tripping again, I moved into the kicthen and thought maybe I just had to sleep to stop this so I had my head down and I could hear all my friends talking about me and I was going splats they were trying to get me to talk but I couldn’t speak so I was pretending to be asleep cos the time kept looping and I knew if I had talked to them it would cut to the next scene, my friend then said I should go to bed so I went upstairs and it just got so so so much worse then. I could hear the music and everyone downstairs talking but it was just a background to the time loop, I didn’t mention this from the first trip but it was the same I could hear the music being played but it felt like all one song as a background to the time loop. Same again here. This was so much scarier because I had experienced it before and I thought that the original trip had never ended and I was still in the mobile home and that these past 2 months were just a trick to try get me to think I wasn’t in the loop anymore. And I already “knew” a lot about it so I was figuring out more and it was terrifying. My friend Alex was staying with me that night and she sent everyone home about 4am. She came up to bed and was asking me if I was okay and stuff and she was like what’s wrong I told her I couldn’t tell her and she knew what was happening to me. Then when I woke up I was STILL stuck in this time loop feeling but about 2 hours later when Alex woke up I was fine. This was yesterday and yesterday just felt so so so strange all day. We were going to my friends sisters communion and we’re drinking all day, I wasn’t drunk at all but when we went back to my friends house to drink some more as I got tipsy I got the feeling again thag it was going to happen again, the way the world looked looked like it did in the time loop and I got so insanely anxious. So I stopped drinking and sent myself home. I think as soon as I sobered up I was fine again and just went to bed.
I think for now I’m going to never ever ever smoke weed again but it’s extremely upsetting because I really do like smoking and I don’t understand why 2 months later this bad trip has caught up to me? I’m honestly still so so scared that I’m still in a trip and that none of this is real and I’m typing all this for no reason but I don’t know… sorry for the really long read but has this happened to anyone else like is it even normal that I went back into the trip from smoking? I wanted to try shrooms again but now I’m not sure if it’s a great idea? And do I need to stop smoking too? I feel like this could all just be anxiety but I really jusg don’t know any advice is welcome you can be mean if you want lol