Christian Medstudents having suicidal tendencies
I'm YL1 27M I started this year in July and I'm passing my exams and evals naman (no line of 7). Idk, maybe it's the unpreparedness and the feeling of going into class never finishing what needs to be studied.
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The tendencies I think carry over as compounded by the loneliness, undiagnosed mental acuity, and an unhealthy coping mechanism. As well as the fact that the unhealthy coping mechanism is sinful as heck. I'm not sleeping around but damn.
The feeling of being a failure in God's eyes, unpreparedness in the classroom, the stress of pressure I put on myself to be better than before. Has left me drained and feeling broken. Overwhelmed by academics and failure in my faith.
Can the Christian Dokies or Seniors help?
I feel defeated and broken I'm not sure I'll survive the next year's like this. I'm waiting out for the end of the semester. See if I fail anything and I'd take it as a sign to stop. I'm also scared because so many people have been already calling me Doc. I just want to disappear 🫠