Acceptance
Hey guys, just a little info on me: 37f, been dealing with this a few years now, l5-s1 grade 1. I changed careers etc. I still have a hard time accepting this medical condition…
Work life is one thing. I’m struggling emotionally with daily life acceptance. My brother in law was married and had a joined bachelor/bachelorette party. It was my first time on a party bus. The next day was absolutely awful. I said to my husband “guess I can never go horse back riding again “. He was just like “you thought you could?”
There’s no amount of money I wouldn’t give to have my back normal again. I just feel so defeated with how much it has impacted my life.
I’ve done PT and I do stretching and get steroid injections. The shots are the only thing making my life somewhat normal but I know they will eventually make my back worse. I’m avoiding surgery..
Anyway, how does everyone accept this condition? How do you accept being left behind? How do you parent without being ornery from pain? How do you handle the guilt from putting more on your partner to avoid causing yourself pain or further deterioration?
Just how ?…