Venlafaxine withdrawal. I'm begging, please help me
I'm 41/f
I started Velafaxine in Sept 2024 after having terrible anxiety. I was on 75 mg and was doing good, but gained about 20 lbs. Hating my weight gain I started weaning myself off in Jan of 2026. I took 10 beads out every week until I got to the middle of March. I don't know why, but I just stopped getting my refills (so stupid I know and I fully regret it) I did great and felt great until the past couple of weeks (May 2026). My anxiety is back and I'm panicky. I can't eat, sleep and I'm barely functioning. I didn't think it was due to withdrawing until I read something in Reddit and it clicked that that's what this probably is. I read the post on Survivingantidepressants.org about reinstating and I took 5 beads today (there are 246 in a 75mg capsule) from a bottle I found in my medicine cabinet. I've tried reading more posts about reinstating but my mind is mush and I can't concentrate. I tried making an account on there to ask for help, but they're not allowing new accounts at the moment. Please help me, do I reinstate? Am I reinstating a good amount? What else can i do? I'm desperate. Please help me, I don't feel like I'll survive this feeling of doom and panic. I have 3 kids, a husband, and a farm to help take care of, I've got to find some way to get through this