I’m on the process of breaking up with her..i’m 25 she’s 23, we’ve been going through a rough path for almost 3 years.
When we had good times, they were amazing. But the bad ones, I can’t be the man that she wants and forget the past.
We have a past of violence, mentally and physical. She has BPD and its hard on her i’m well aware. Its hard on me aswell to deal with this and always try to satisfy her, as much as i’m not doing the right thing for her.
There is a kid in the equation, her kid. I’m the stepfather and he’s almost 3. It hurts to let him go as I grew attached to him, but I can’t live like this any longer.. can’t argue anymore, can’t find the words to say, what she wants to hear, the patience to deal with everything, its all gone.
She did big efforts in the last days/weeks, I just can’t see her the way I used to.. I love her for doing this, but I hate it so much when we argue and she throws insults at me..and the times it got physical, i’m not sure i’m doing the right thing..