u/Aware_Crazy_3346

I'm actually doing 15 days because I started a day early 🤦‍♀️ I've lived off of just 4 slimfast shakes a day, not a single morsel of food. Days 1-5 were the hardest, after that I didnt feel hungry at all (still wanted to eat food for the taste/pleasure) but just one day left of the shakes and then surgery day. I cannot wait to eat food again, literally. Food is such a pleasure and life has been pretty miserable without it but ive been feeling surprisingly well, I work 12.5 hour shifts and work days have been far easier than at home days. I've cooked a couple of meals for my boyfriend and resisted temptation. Feeling proud of myself. Fingers crossed my surgery goes well!

I am currently 9st 10lb down from 16st 6lb. Original goal weight was 12st then down to 10 and now 9. I am only 4ft 9 so "healthy" bmi would put me between 6st 3 and 8st 3.

I am currently fitting into size 12 clothes but this feels insane to me and I don't trust it, I look at the clothes and feel like they won't fit on my body but they do. I have always been big and I still feel big. But to me a size 12 is not big so it doesn't make sense! Friends are telling me I look "tiny" now. I still have a lot of fat especially on my abdomen (apron belly) I know this will never fully go but it still sticks out quite a lot. I feel like I'm not seeing myself the way everybody else is. Or maybe they are just so used to seeing me bigger I look a lot smaller to them in comparison? I still feel very big, I'm only just out of the obese category into overweight, how can I be tiny? I know I am repeating myself now, bit of a rant, sorry.