Help
Hi, I'm 26 y/o female bi na may anak at bf na. Before and after pregnancy, I was cheated on multiple times pero wala ako magawa. I felt like trapped, I tried makipaghiwalay pero everytime we do that, daming kontra kesyo kung kelan daw may anak saka ganito ganyan na parang kasalanan ko. And the pain piled up as the time goes by. Lately, lagi kami nag aaway ng bf ko, madalas kami nag aaway before ako pumasok sa work and kapag kino confront ko sa kanya yun, normal lang naman daw yun. Btw, live in na kami. To cut the story, nagkagusto ako sa lesbi na close friend sa work. For the first time, I felt the real me again. Pero takot ako magcheat sa bf ko dahil I know the pain but it doesn't hold me back na hindi magcheat and idk why. I confessed my feelings and my mistake to my bf. Now, I am being threatened by him na maghanap ako ng mag aalaga sa baby namin or wag ko raw sisirain relasyon namin. Idk what to do, magiging selfish ba ko if I choose myself naman or bf ko pa rin piliin ko? As per my baby, I have no intention na iwanan siya sa papa niya or something. I am planning to do co parenting pero sakin ang baby since I am the mother. Please give me insights.