u/Beevara

I just started a couple of weeks ago in digital, and while it can be a little bit of a pain, I actually enjoy my job so far.

Today, my team lead made me feel utterly embarrassed, and I was left sobbing in my car after my shift ended.

I rushed a frozen pickwalk as fast as I could, and I didn't bag anything until I was done. It helped that there were not that many customers around this time because they held me up quite a bit. When I finished it, I quickly bagged the groceries and headed to out the cart back.

The reason I'm rushing is because I need to pee.

It was around 6:45 pm, and Im scheduled to leave at 7 pm. I put my tc up, which I am always told to do around this time.

I heard towards the back to use the restroom (it's clear across the store) when my team lead called out to me from a few aisles down and asked where I'm going.

I tell him that I'm headed to the back, that I need to pee. He tells me to take a cart with me and do a pickwalk on the way. I told him that I leave in like ten minutes, and while I don't remember exactly what he says here, he starts laughing and seems like he's in a joking mood.

I continue to head towards the restroom because I can barely hold on any longer, and I don't care if he's serious or not.

He lets me get halfway down the aisle and calls out to me, more seriously, and repeats what he just said.

At this point, I realize he's serious.

He starts walking me back to opd and attempts to lecture me. It's all a little fuzzy right now.

At this point, he tells me to just go after my shifts over. I told him that I couldn't exactly hold it, that my meds make me pee a lot, and I can't just do that. (I take a double dose of spirolactone)

He says, "And I understand that, but we're all working here."

I go back and grab the tc I put up. When he saw me putting the battery in and turning it on, he laughed and said, "You put your tc up too?!"

This was around several coworkers. I have pretty bad anxiety, and this made me feel off as hell.

Every single day I've worked, my tc is always taken around ten minutes to half an hour before my shift ends. Whether it's because it was physically taken from me or because I'm told to put it up. I was under the assumption that was what I'm supposed to do when I'm so close to the end of my shift. That's just how it's been since I started.

He reaches into his pocket and hands me a tc, and takes the one I'm trying to turn on. While I'm signing in, he tells me that if it's a large order, I won't have to do it. It pops up with 7 items, to which he says, "See, it's not that bad.""

At this point, I'm in pain, and the way he speaks to me makes me uncomfortable. Whenever he speaks to me, it feels like a parent talking teenager, Im almost thirty, and dont talk to me like a teenager, please.

As I'm walking off from opd with a new picnwalk, I realize that it's already 6:52pm.

As I'm walking through the clothing sections towards the other side of the store, the pain starts to get to me, and frankly, he made me feel even worse.

I tried not to, but I couldn't help but start crying. It was a reaction it wasn't something I wanted or desired to do. I tried to hold it back, but I just couldn't.

As I'm walking, I'm trying to avoid letting people see my eyes because I'm embarrassed. I'm trying to get this order done as quickly as I can but the crying kinda .are me take a little longer.

While it was only 7 items, the pickwalk has me zig zag across the wntire store, and in the meantime, I'm feeling worse by the second. The more people that see my face, the more embarrassed I get, and that makes it worse.

A customer stopped me and asked if I was okay, then asked again, and I tried to smile and say yeah I'm fine. To which I was utterly unsuccessful.

It became worse as time passed, and I felt like I was on the verge of pissing myself.

When I returned to opd, I didn't say a word to anyone. I put my device up and put the cart where it needed to be, then I clocked out.

Speaking of, when I returned to opd and a few people saw my face they went quiet. Like popcorn, if it went silent instead of popping, I suppose.

I wasn't able to clock out until around 7:12pm.

I clocked out and rushed back to the restroom to use it. It was occupied. This is one of the reasons I wanted to go earlier. It's always in use.

I don't know if you know what it's like being a transgender woman, but going in both the men's and women's restrooms is dangerous for me. I've already had a few bad customer interactions while picking since I started, and I often get people staring at me.

When I realized that the restroom was full, I rushed towards my car so I could speed home before I piss myself. I ended up sobbing as soon as I got inside the driver's seat.

He made me feel like an idiot. I am beyond embarrassed.