I want to drop out
Im coming up to the end of my first year at uni for adult nursing, and I hate it. I loved the classes/academic side but I hate placement. I was so riddled with anxiety for the first placement back in march that I had a serious breakdown and couldn’t finish. I’m now finally on placement and it is better anxiety wise, but it’s still soul crushing.
I’m already in contact with the wellbeing teams at university and occupational health. I just feel like a failure because I’m decent at the academic side, it’s the placement side I’m seriously lacking passion in. I get home and immediately go to my room and sob, I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, and I’m just nauseous all the time. Everyone around me is loving being on placement and I just can’t, I get two hours into a shift and immediately want to leave.
What am I supposed to do in this situation?
Little update: I’ve contacted my university and have taken a gap year where if I chose to I can withdraw from uni. I’m glad I’m not the only one who isn’t a fan.