Hello, new here... Need guidance and maybe a little prayer
Hello, all. I don't really post stuff on here so just bare with me... I really need help from the Lord and you guys
I met a girl when I was in highschool, when I laid eyes on her I thought she was the most beautiful girl in the world. But I never said anything. Too busy on video games and what not
After that I had a little heartbreak. And I realized that I was really lonely. Like profound loneliness. I went in my room and I said a little prayer. I asked God to send someone to take away the loneliness. Someone who understands.
A year later he delivers the aforementioned girl. She was always in the back of my mind. We start dating and man I felt great. I felt like a normal teenager for once.
But things happened and we break up... I always pray for God to give her back to me and he always does. We date on and off for 10 years.. she's my first kiss, took my virginity, taught me how to ride the bus, even recently gave me my first child ...
But now after the extremely rocky relationship.. she says she's done for good. And this time... It feels like it. I don't eat much anymore, I don't sleep, it feels like God took away my soulmate.
So why would he give me something back just to take it away? Is he really stripping away my soulmate? Can he please restore my family back?