Need to talk to someone :(
I’m going through an avoidant breakup right now and I already felt emotionally overwhelmed, but something small today sent me spiraling. I was eating dumplings with chili oil and some of the oil hit the back of my throat. I have pretty bad food anxiety and immediately panicked thinking I might’ve inhaled something into my lungs. Now I can’t calm down and I feel terrified.
I live with roommates but we barely talk, and most of my friends moved away after graduation. My ex used to be my safe space, so losing that support has made everything feel much heavier. I can text friends or talk online, but what I really miss is physical comfort. someone being there beside me telling me I’m okay. I want someone to pat me and tell me I’d be fine.
I’m alone in this country and my mind keeps jumping to worst-case scenarios like “what if something happens to me?” and then I think about my parents and feel even more scared.
I guess I’m posting because I feel very alone tonight and could really use reassurance or support from anyone who understands anxiety, heartbreak, or both.