u/Best-Difficulty6789

I have been trying to write a book for about 2 years now. i am 16 (ik overly ambitious of me TwT) but it has been a dream of mine to write a book. a problem i keep running into is every time i write a chapter i constantly reread it and need it to be perfect or i cannot move on. on a similar vein, i struggle with “preplanning”. i dont know why but if i outline a chapter i struggle more to write it than if i had no plan at all. the combination isnt great of these two things as i write sth then relise its all wrong for the tone i want of that chapter. I have this vision and it KILLS me when i cannot make it come to life with words. either the pacing is wrong, emotions are wrong or it goes left field from my plot. id just like some words of encouragement and some advice rlly TwT. im currently on chapter 6 of my book after TWO YEARS and that feels like such a underachievement even if ive been busy af with exams and life.

I want my book to cover a larger representative of people and make sure people are able to see themselves in media with more front line characters without the disorder being their “whole personality” as seen so often in horrible portrayals of it. I want to be able to make them have some of the issues but not make the entire character about it. Most will be side characters that have semi big relevant in the plot but also i want minor side characters to have them so people can see that its normal in society and that people shouldn't be seen as different. I myself have adhd, autism and depression so i am able to effectively write about those to some degree but id still really love peoples own experiences with it. the disorders id really appreciate help on are :

• Ptsd 
• Ocd
• Adhd
• Autism 
• Anxiety 
• Depression
• Narcissism 
• BPD
• Bipolar
• EDs 
• Alcoholism/drug addiction
• DID

any and all information will be helpful. Ive gone to their respective reddits and looked through peoples posts, what they struggle with, how they cope, behaviours and ect as well as doing a LOT of online research but id rlly appreciate if here anyone would be willing to give me their experiences with it, working/living/being around people with it, behaviours that are common but overlooked and finally things you hate to see in normal media portrayals so ik what to avoid. I want to be as respectful in my book as possible by being able to work with characters with these issues.