He an extremely rough day, week 10 of clinicals
Hey everyone! So as the title says, today (and honestly yesterday too) was really rough. My preceptor told me that I need to go back to lab for practice because I’m still touching stuff too much during set up, constantly shuffling stuff around.
I’ll admit that I’m still touching stuff too much, I’m working on it but it’s still there. She said by now I should have a routine down and I shouldn’t be “fidgeting” so much when it comes to setting up my softs and sharps etc. After a few minutes she scrubbed in to take over because I was taking so long, and it was a robotic case with a dirty table and a clean table.
The problem is, every single preceptor tells me to do things differently. I’m always doing something wrong, even if I do it exactly how their coworker told me to do it the day before. I’m trying desperately to get a system down and to only touch things once. It’s a simple enough task for sure, I understand the concept, so why can’t I get it?
The day went downhill from there. Any move I made, she scrutinized. For half a second I reached for a raytec before we had counted to make a sponge stick, but I caught myself and put my hand back where it was. She asked me what I was reaching for and why. The list goes on.
I also haven’t had this harsh of criticism at any of the other facilities I’ve been at. Even last week at this facility I had a great week. Even with the same preceptor I had today! I’m just so discouraged and I’m rambling.
Was today just a bad day? She definitely made me anxious all day with the constant scrutiny so that didn’t help my confidence. Or am I just terrible?