u/Bigeyes-00

Hey everybody,

I was so devoted to God last year and after a longgg waiting season came so many blessings all at once for example a good man and a job. But I got too cocky and busy and started praying less. Everything started falling apart just as soon as I got it (I lost my job and i lost the guy, unmotivated, depressed, anxious etc)

In january 2026 I started taking God seriously again. And now after so many months I finally feel like relieved again, in my restoring season and I’m so thankful to God and i’m never leaving again!

I finally have a job again. And it’s even better than the last one! So I know God restores and he makes our path straight. My mental health is also way better (this is a little testimony).

Due to trauma and mental health issues, I pushed the guy away and lost him. He is really disappointed because he gave me so many chances and lowkey moved on. Which really hurts. Like it hurts and cuts DEEP.

I am focusing on me, i am focusing on my relationship with God, trying again in school and building my physical health (Most important things ofc). But to be honest, at the end of the day, I still think about the guy. I miss him very much and I carry deep regret. I pray over him everyday and I bring this to God everyday. I know God is a God of restoration and reconciliation (part of His Will) but I do ask him if it’s in His specific will for me to let me reconcile with this guy because I mishandled this blessing and I regret it very much.

Don’t get me wrong even though this season was really hard I got a lot of blessings out of it. I also promised God that I wouldn’t leave Him and I really do want His Will to be done over my life (after this He showed me a careerpath I should take so I can help people). But I’m still just a 20 year old girl who mishandled a blessing, a blessing she dearly misses and holds a lot of regret over. The mishandling of this blessing and restoring it and healing my pcos are my only 2 desires I have on my heart.

I just wanted to know; what’s your opinion on mishandling blessings? Do you guys have any tips on how I should pray? Maybe something I should do?

Hey everybody,

I was so devoted to God last year and after a longgg waiting season came so many blessings all at once for example a good man and a job. But I got too cocky and busy and started praying less. Everything started falling apart just as soon as I got it (I lost my job and i lost the guy, unmotivated, depressed, anxious etc)

In january 2026 I started taking God seriously again. And now after so many months I finally feel like relieved again, in my restoring season and I’m so thankful to God and i’m never leaving again!

I finally have a job again. And it’s even better than the last one! So I know God restores and he makes our path straight. My mental health is also way better (this is a little testimony).

Due to trauma and mental health issues, I pushed the guy away and lost him. He is really disappointed because he gave me so many chances and lowkey moved on. Which really hurts. Like it hurts and cuts DEEP.

I am focusing on me, i am focusing on my relationship with God, trying again in school and building my physical health (Most important things ofc). But to be honest, at the end of the day, I still think about the guy. I miss him very much and I carry deep regret. I pray over him everyday and I bring this to God everyday. I know God is a God of restoration and reconciliation (part of His Will) but I do ask him if it’s in His specific will for me to let me reconcile with this guy because I mishandled this blessing and I regret it very much.

Don’t get me wrong even though this season was really hard I got a lot of blessings out of it. I also promised God that I wouldn’t leave Him and I really do want His Will to be done over my life (after this He showed me a careerpath I should take so I can help people). But I’m still just a 20 year old girl who mishandled a blessing, a blessing she dearly misses and holds a lot of regret over. The mishandling of this blessing and restoring it and healing my pcos are my only 2 desires I have on my heart.

I just wanted to know; what’s your opinion on mishandling blessings? Do you guys have any tips on how I should pray? Maybe something I should do?

Hey everybody,

I was so devoted to God last year and after a longgg waiting season came so many blessings all at once for example a good man and a job. But I got too cocky and busy and started praying less. Everything started falling apart just as soon as I got it (I lost my job and i lost the guy, unmotivated, depressed, anxious etc)

In january 2026 I started taking God seriously again. And now after so many months I finally feel like relieved again, in my restoring season and I’m so thankful to God and i’m never leaving again!

I finally have a job again. And it’s even better than the last one! So I know God restores and he makes our path straight. My mental health is also way better (this is a little testimony).

Due to trauma and mental health issues, I pushed the guy away and lost him. He is really disappointed because he gave me so many chances and lowkey moved on. Which really hurts. Like it hurts and cuts DEEP.

I am focusing on me, i am focusing on my relationship with God, trying again in school and building my physical health (Most important things ofc). But to be honest, at the end of the day, I still think about the guy. I miss him very much and I carry deep regret. I pray over him everyday and I bring this to God everyday. I know God is a God of restoration and reconciliation (part of His Will) but I do ask him if it’s in His specific will for me to let me reconcile with this guy because I mishandled this blessing and I regret it very much.

Don’t get me wrong even though this season was really hard I got a lot of blessings out of it. I also promised God that I wouldn’t leave Him and I really do want His Will to be done over my life (after this He showed me a careerpath I should take so I can help people). But I’m still just a 20 year old girl who mishandled a blessing, a blessing she dearly misses and holds a lot of regret over. The mishandling of this blessing and restoring it and healing my pcos are my only 2 desires I have on my heart.

I just wanted to know; what’s your opinion on mishandling blessings? Do you guys have any tips on how I should pray? Maybe something I should do?

Hi everybody! i would like insight, motivation, testimonies etc etc on what I’m about to tell.

So in 2024 I started building my relationship with God. And to be fair it was in a bit of selfish way to some extent. I was 18 at the time and my teenage years weren’t the best (a boy I really liked died, I got SA’ed, dropped out of uni abroad and moved back home, dated a narcist who beat me down emotionally and stole my money for 1.5 years, a boyfriend betrayed me etc Might I add my family suffers from generational curses when it comes to relationships/dating/marriage but i’m in the process of breaking these).

After all of this happened I felt empty so i started working on my relationship with God. At the same I was also in a sneaky link situation with a guy who I started out with as a really good friend. I started liking him but he kept telling me he didn’t like me back but we still saw each other and he was muslim too. So one day he just cut me off randomly and I started praying more and more that God can save him, to reconcile us because I liked him and i missed our friendship. And it felt like God put it on my soul that everything was going to be okay but the circumstances were diabolical and he got a girlfriend so I used to get mad at God and didn’t pray for weeks at a time. Around august-september 2025 I was still pretty upset But I was actively praying, seeing myself get better and God started blessing me expeditiously: I got a job, mental health was better, new and refreshed motivation for school and I met someone amazing (I didn’t expect to meet him because from july-october 2025 I kept praying that the next guy I meet is someone that will treat me well, not someone that’s going to hurt me.

So around november, life was looking up. But what did i do? I forgot God. Praying less, reading the word less. But I also started treating the guy I was with bad. Doing stuff behind his back, lying to him because I was so traumatized from everything every other guy did to me.

In january 2026, literally the 4th day, I woke up with anxiety, emptiness, depression like I haven’t felt in months. I especially felt convicted about the situation with the guy. I prayed to God that he removes both guys if they aren’t meant for me or he removes the one that isn’t for me. Guess what? the sweet one stayed while the other one started being extremely mean and he left himself. I started praying and reading the word again. But my mental health was still so bad and I lost my job and all of my motivation for school. I kept seeking God everyday but i was still so mean to the guy and he gave me so many chances. He left around the end of march because he couldn’t deal with me anymore.

For the past 2 months I have been seeking guidance from my schooltherapist and an elderly from the church. I have been praying more and more and reading the word more (finally bought a physical bible too!) And life has been looking up; i might have a new job, no more depression and anxiety (some anxious moments here and there as healing isn’t linear but not as bad as it was). My joy and interests in hobby’s has returned. And i have motivation for school! Even though I messed up, God restored so much for me. I know he’s a restorer!

So about the muslim guy, a few weeks ago he added me on snapchat. I was confused cause I thought God wasn’t going to let us reconcile. So while driving I was talking to Him about it and it felt like he put this on my spirit: God knows I hate fighting with people and he knew i missed my friendship with him but He needed me to get over him first to reconcile a friendship. He wouldn’t give me a muslim guy and my assignment is not to convert him. And he wouldn’t give me someone that was so mean to me.

And that made a lot of sense.

But my question is, I genuinely carry a lot of guilt and especially to the guy I was dating that was trying so hard for me. And I have been praying about it (I reached out to him a couple of weeks ago but he said that the situation was so bad and i was too blinded to see how i was treating him). I really miss him, do you guys think God will restore what me and him had? It truly feels like I mishandled a big blessing (God put this on my heart)