Hi ppl. my first and last post probably
i have stage 4 sarcoma . well, tbh, i have been an avid reader, but never posted anything. i dont know how long i am here for. probably max 5 yrs. well , i am 18 yo guy. i wanted to pursue medschool. um, rn i do nothing, but spend time with my family. idk, why i am writing this, but felt to do so. i always wanted to post something. i dont think , i will post anything more after this one. i know its sad , but it is what it is. i am fighting the battle, but the opponent is too heavy equipped , hehe. lets talk about something generic. probably no ones reading this. but i like the feel. i scored 94.8% last year , when i went to school. it was fun. its been months, since i am at home. this weekend , we are going to miami for my cousin's wedding. its a disposable account. i dont want my closed ones to know this, ahh. i try to be as jolly as i could , in front of all. its not that i act it, i am jolly. but neither i want them to lose hope and grief over it. i really dont wanna spread gloom and exit the world. so yeahh, i mean. byee then. signing out. Aesinus. P.S -- my stream account name. we can play gta online , if anyone's interested. byeee
edit-- thank you for all love. i have osteosarcoma, as someone asked. i know, and i have not lost complete hope yet. but being practical, idk if i can say more than 5 yrs. it has spread beyond the lungs, so surgery is not an opt. i have been on aggressive chemotherapy as i am still 18. but the respond is poor. my health has declined significantly, compared to last year. i can't play soccer, i can't swim, neither can i gym. but still, health has been quite stable since last few weeks. i am trying to enjoy the time as much as I can. and I would suggest other cancer buddies the same. there's nothing good in worrying about it. enjoy the moments, and it in a way gives strength to fight the disease. love y'all. byee