Partners keep calling out…
I work 911 part time so I don’t have a set schedule or partner. But I’ve cycled through some of the same people enough that we know how the other person operates. I’m noticing a trend where people keep calling out of our shifts or getting their shifts switched the night before or morning of a shift with me. Of course it could be for a personal reason unrelated to me, but I’m picking up clues that it’s intentional. When I first started here one of the FTOs decided to bad mouth me to numerous people. So badly, that they privately came up to me about it and warned me not to trust him. However, he is friends with most of the people I’ve worked with. I never say a bad thing about him even when questioned. I spoke up to a supervisor during training, because the FTO would neglect to go over a single thing with me and wrote up bad reports. I’ve only been at this company for a few months and thankfully got out with another FTO and passed training. Prior to this I had five years of paid 911 experience and then took a break for a few years and I’m just getting back into it. I used to be an FTO, I never mentioned that to him. My point is that I started a bit rough and out of practice here, but the way he treated me was unprofessional and in fact borderline abusive with the way he spoke to me and flat out ignored me when I would speak. I did the best I could and I still am. No one has directly said anything to me about my performance. Literally, not even him. But that doesn’t convince me they aren’t all going behind my back. I say that because they actively shit talk about each other and they’re all friends. I honestly don’t know what to do. It’s going to be nearly impossible to find a local position that’s part time with benefits. I’m dealing with a lot personally and going into work feeling like I’m an outcast isn’t helping. I’m getting incredibly depressed which isn’t like me. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. Maybe I’m jumping to conclusions, but people also outright ignore me. I started out trying to be friendly and approachable, but no one else was. I’ll say hello to partners in passing after we work together and they intentionally avoid me by looking the other way or ignore me. It’s becoming so hurtful that I have stopped trying to be friendly to anyone. Realistically, I cannot quit. But I would like to make going into this place not so miserable and stressful. I also notice that everyone feels the need to micromanage me before giving me the opportunity to do the thing they feel the need to tell me to do and I’m just about to snap on someone.