I was on the balcony in our apartment. Weirdly enough, my ex was in the living room (which is directly connected to the balcony and has a big window and glass door). All of a sudden, while standing there, in the furthest corner of the balcony from the door, I was showering? I had something like a shower curtain covering me until my knees. Then my dad went on the balcony as well. Usually irl he goes out to smoke. It was due to the same reason in the dream but he could see I was showering. I even told him "Hey im showering! Cant u smoke later??" and he replied "no, I really need to smoke right now". Somehow I knew it wasn't because of that but rather to be in my presence while I'm vulnerable. Then he removed the curtain and started helping me wash my body. I felt beyond disgusting and embarrassed. Then I woke up.
A few notes:
1-As far as I know, I've never been SA'ed irl. My dad has never shown signs of being a pedophile or sex offender. Having a dream where he's doing this to me is beyond a mystery for me. My best guess as of why my brain connected these things is because I've been exposed to animated CSA when I was around 14.
2- I feel like my ex was there as a way to amplify this feeling of shame. Because I felt like she could see everything going on the whole time. Especially because irl I viewed her as "always the more confident one, the more knowledgeable one, someone to look up to".