u/Bubbly_Strategy2538

Gosh can anyone relate to this? i have never been afraid of myself rather i am afraid of OTHERS. Ever since i was young like 6 years old ive had nightmares of people throwing up around me but it’s almost like in an antagonizing way like in my dream as a child i would be in a house with like 15 people and they all randomly start throwing up in my direction and i have to play floor is lava jumping on every high surface to escape. well as an adult my fear in my dreams has developed to other situations, i think the biggest trigger for me is parties or bars or places where drinking alcohol extremely normalized because now i have a recurring dream on being at a house party where everyone is doing the same thing as my childhood dream, literally puking on everything giving me absolutely no escape like every floor surface has puke on it and i barely can escape. like everywhere i turn someone is throwing up. I mean looking outside of myself i feel so ridiculous for this being so severely intense to the point i avoid all fairs/carnivals, i avoid bars, parties, concerts or being around drunk people i avoid public transport and i absolutely cannot use public bathrooms without knowing someone puked there once. don’t even get me started on bar bathrooms…. or riding cars with others who get car sick i mean so much more