I'm scared but I want to learn
Here's the gist of it. I'm 18, a first year at university, and I gave Muay Thai a go a couple weeks back. I got put with someone who did kickboxing before and he straight up bullied me.
I'm not unathletic, I play tennis a couple times a week and I genuinely love my gym.
I never did any combat sports growing up, and I can't help but close my eyes and look away once someone starts throwing punches at me. I genuinely don't know what to do.
My honest motivation to do Muay Thai is that I want to be able to genuinely defend myself. I get plenty of exercise in over the week from gym and tennis and I am healthy. However, in a troublesome situation I wouldn't be able to do anything no matter how many pistol squats I can do. I can't swim either - it's just about learning important life skills.