It is so hard for me to go to classes
F20, medicated, doing a 2 year diploma. My classes are only 4 days a week from 10am–1/2pm and campus is only 15 mins away, so logically it should be easy to attend. But it’s SO hard for me.
Lectures drain me insanely fast. I listen, take notes, do normal lecture stuff, but after a couple hours my eyes feel heavy/strained and I end up exhausted for the rest of the day even though I barely “did” anything. I have mild astigmatism and prescription glasses which help, but not enough for the full 3–4 hours.
The biggest issue is my brain constantly thinking:
“Why go to class, get exhausted, and get less work done, when I can stay home, keep my energy up, and do way more work?”
I know attendance matters and I have support through a disability advisor + ADHD coach, but I keep fighting with myself over whether going in is even worth the energy cost.
I end up just full on ghosting my tutors, feeling so bad because I have to message my advisor I didn't come in when i promised I will.
I'm trying to find ways to motivate me to attend class, I don't have any friends- since of my low attendance I still don't know anyone's names even though were in week 12 now. All the slides are online, so I do hand in my assignments in time.
Advice would be greatly appreciated :')