Medication unmasking new personality traits?
So I'm on Vyvanse 40mg for the last few weeks and I feel as if I'm more blunt and assertive on this medication. I don't really feel the need to conform; I feel less anxious but on the flip side, I feel more disconnected around people for some reason.
For instance, I feel an acute sense of being around others but not really feeling a sense of belonging. Like at work, I get along with nearly everyone but, except two people whom I consider my friends, I don't hang out with anyone during my break.
No matter how much I like those two friends at work, I won't go to them unless they speak to me first and around others, I'm consciously aware of every social interaction (my mind has a running internal coach telling me now say this, don't say that, look sad because they said something sad, ok maybe end the conversation now because their eyes are wandering they're starting to look bored but should I wait for them or do it myself? urgh this is agony, I don't know but I don't want to drain this conversation etc).
I also have developed a 'devil may care' attitude to work - like if anyone says anything disrespectful, I will say something back, I will not take it lightly and get really angry when I feel I've been wronged (I wasn't like this before medication unless I was extremely provoked). I can be all or nothing and pretty judgmental deep down too and get really upset if someone doesn't say hi (I almost resent them) and when they do say hi, I like them immediately again as all is well now.
Can anyone else relate??