KEEP GOING QUIT PROPS
6 years....... it has taken me 6 years to finally see a green month and some.
Starting with nothing makes this shit so much harder. No handouts, no cushion, no way to fund my trading besides money that could’ve been bill money. Yeah, I know. But that’s where I was, trying to learn while feeling like I needed every dollar to turn into something.
I’ve been trading since midway through the pandemic, so I’ve been around for a while. For years I went back and forth between live accounts and prop firms. COUNTLESS evaluations passed, countless funded accounts, and little to no actual rewards to show for it. Almost quit a couple times after crashing out my live accounts. I know plenty of us have been there. Once we found this art, it felt like the ONLY way out.
But honestly, the biggest thing I had to fix was me.
STOP TRADING PROP FIRMS if you’re stuck in that same cycle. If you have a system you’ve actually proven gives you an edge, go live, start small, and PRACTICE DISCIPLINE.
I found that to be my main problem. I was somehow more comfortable blowing bill money on evaluations, getting funded, then overrisking like an idiot and doing it all over again. Always chasing a payout and barely taking anything home.
On my live account, when I make $65, I’m fine with that. I can close it and go about my day. This is coming from someone who at times had max accounts across damn near every firm and was “seeing” about $50,000 a day. Seeing it on a dashboard and actually getting that money are two very different things.
Props became a joke to me. What good were those numbers if I wasn’t taking the money home? And don’t even get me started on the rules and the psychological toll of trying to trade around all of that.
I started this account with $400, and I’m up $1,788.78 across this stretch. I know that isn’t much to some of you, but after 6 years, I’ll take it.
And being in the game this long, I know what scaling is. Imagine eventually doing this with a $10k account and the same discipline. I know $10k isn’t a lot to some of y’all, but to me, that kind of money is life changing. I’m not saying the results automatically scale perfectly. I’m saying I’m finally seeing something I can build on instead of constantly paying to start over.
One green month and a little more doesn’t mean I’ve figured everything out. But it means something to me.
Long story short: get a live account, start small, and chill out. That’s what I needed to learn. Every day doesn’t have to be a huge payday. Sometimes $65 and closing the charts is enough.