Am I under a spiritual attack or am I just tripping 😭
I’m really new to this Reddit community!
For starters I’ve been a devotee for about 5 years now but the people in my life continue to disrespect her my baby daddy got drunk and high one night and said f**k your mama and shattered my first statue ( 7 colors beautiful with wings) shortly after that he lost his mind went back on drugs lost custody of my daughter and ended back in prison now he prays to her and even tried to sacrifice me to her like okay???
Then my mom was on some bullshit she was being on some snake shit stealing from my grandmother one day I told her stop her shit leave it be.. I told her leave me the fuck alone and she wouldn’t stop she said get this fucking demonic shit out of my house went for my black statue and tried to grab it I looked at her and laughed I said I fucking dare you!! Your about to find out!! She was so freaked out she left went to work and came home her register was short over 100 dollars came home and said whatever the fuck you put on me take it the fuck off!! Then on Mothers Day the love of her life drove his Harley in to a phone pole!! Shortly after my grandmother passed away and she almost lost everything which forced her to get 2 jobs something she has never done before!!
Fast forward to last year my ex from when I was like 20 well we always kept in contact and saw each other on and off over the years never really in each others business like that as I live in California and he lives in Arizona it was more like to fuck around none the less we hadn’t talked in some time and out of no where he hits me up.. Comes by my job sees me gives me a hug and then a little kiss I was like what the fuck I was so in shock as it’s been almost 4 years I haven’t seen this man none the less I’m like okay??? This guy isn’t all that trustworthy hence why I refuse to lock in regardless how good the head game is I’m dumb but not that dumb LMFAO he was on some I miss you and I’m on some fuck with my feelings ima show you how real my SANTA is Come to find out he has a whole ass girlfriend trip the fuck out she dies 2 weeks later in the most horrific way I actually think Santa took her with her guadana the way it looked like she was trying to block something from striking her in the chest POOR GIRL the sickest part is this mofo told her he went to go see me and she knew the history between us I can’t even imagine what was going through her mind well I didn’t find out about none of that until way later when he became suicidal and started going live on instagram with guns calling me out and I had to leave work after a 12 hour shift and drive 7 fucking hours from riverside ca to Maricopa az not to mention my car breaking down on me as if that wasn’t a fucking sign or him losing everything from his job to his house and then the grand finale of him going live saying he wasn’t going to let Santa take his soul safe to say I never heard from him ever again!! As I promised her
My alleged best friend came to my house on Christmas night and we got in to a bad altercation she told me Santa isn’t real it’s all in my head and she broke my statue my current boyfriend gifted me it was again of the 7 colors but sitting on a throne!! 2 weeks ago she came to my house drunk at 3 in the morning crying saying she will pay me back the money she owes me and that she is sorry and that they are trying to take her kids away and that she is having problems in her marriage and that she has a “GREEN LIGHT ON HER” at this point idk what to think or believe any more.
One thing I do know is that I’ve been in really bad depression I’m not myself I still put candles and flowers for AMA but I just idk I have no will I’m really suicidal all my candles turn black it’s wild ohhh and I forgot to mention I had a beautiful big azteca statue in my living room and I got rid of her well I gave her to a friend of mine because my kids that I share custody of refused to come in my house or spend the night but they deceived me and never came and I feel like a piece of shit for letting her go and she is punishing me for it now and it’s crazy how much she had my back and took care of the ones who wronged me in the past and now nothing
Although I did feel her some what idk I need insight HELP