Really struggling
I’ve been symptomatic since 2018. In the last three years or so I have had noticeable weight issues and in the last 18 months have gained 6 stone!!
I was finally medicated last year, but I don’t think I’m optimised yet. Some of the worse symptoms have gotten better or less severe, the most noticeable was brain fog and fatigue.
The problem is, I’ve mentally struggled with my weight all my adult life, in the past I could get into a calorie defect, stick with it and shift the extra pounds. But I’m now bigger than I ever have been and whilst I’ve never been what I’d describe as “fit” I did enjoy being active when on holiday, doing physical activities and being adventurous, but now I’m really struggling to heave my big body around and it’s totally depressed me.
Part of my symptoms includes quite bad muscle pain in my arms which hasn’t eased and physio hasn’t helped. I’m currently on holiday and just struggled to get off a boat, which resulted in me really hurting my arms in the process and then falling over in front of everyone. Which for onlookers, is always amusing when a fat person falls over!
The whole journey back I sat in silent anxiety thinking about trying to get off the boat the other end and just cried behind my sunglasses at how much I’m struggling.
I can’t help but feel the NHS is partly to blame for the condition I am in. I don’t eat a lot anyway, but I calculated my BMR when I was unmedicated was around 1300 calories a day, so whenever I ate over that I was consuming more than needed which led to the weight gain, they just fobbed me off and now I’m obese, unhealthy and depressed about it.
Not sure what I’m hoping for, just needed to rant a little.