u/Capital-Rise-1155

Deficiency.
You would not know love
If he gazed you in your eyes.
Neither would he understand loyalty
If she grasped his hand for a lifetime and an eternity.

You think he showed love
Through his gifts and wads of cash.
Whilst he thought you showed yours in delicacies selected for him and him alone.

In one world it was only you and him
Him and her.
The other hand suggested a defeated infinity.
And that’s neither of your faults
neither your concerns.

In the end it was broken
Even though it was never assembled to begin with.
Whilst in the beginning the stars must’ve been off by just a tad.

It was never meant to be and that was never a mystery.
Yet you and the world question why, oh why?

Don’t you ever think I’m you.
Or she is her.
Because I’ve stared love deep behind her mind
And clutched so hard our arm are diamond.

Dad
You’ve been gone what,
A year, 25 days and however many hours?
Yet I was there what
Two days a week skipping your joys to enjoy my frivolities?

I was painted a false narrative of you.
I vilified you and preached about your brown bottles and burning white sticks of escape.
Yet I never checked the portraits of your storytellers.

Until it was too late.

You was there for me
But for me not for you.
You held the weight of more than the world
On more than just your shoulders.
But not a grunt left your throat.
Not a complaint slipped past your teeth.

Abandoned by your mother.
Discouraged by your father.
Desecrated by your brother.
And resented by your lover.

You was the one in pain but you didn’t cry.
You was the one who needed us
But we exploited your assets
Without half a glance or a full thought.

You wasn’t the villain. You was a victim.
You Too blinded by ego, greed, apathy and love
Yet who were we to say that.
For I was shaped by you.
A glass watering can.

Fuck you for leaving me here
Fuck her for lying
Fuck him for his impertinence
And fuck me for my poison laced, bandaged eye.

I haven’t said it for too many years.
But I love you.
Granted it took your absence to teach me love.
I love you.