I've been painting for 27 years and I still can't sit down most of the time to paint. What's actually going on?
I've been painting for 27 years. I have ADHD, a busy full-time job, a family, and somewhere between 40 and 400 unpainted Space Marines depending on how honest I feel being... I know the pile of shame quite well, to the point it moved with me from one country to another when I migrated for a job opportunity...
One thing I've noticed, in myself and in watching the people around me that paints as well, is that "no time" is almost never true. The time exists, but it is for netflix, crunchyroll, or just watching tiktoks...
For me it's usually one of these:
- I sit at my desk and I don't know where to start. Decision paralysis from all my half-finished projects.
- I'm not in the right headspace and I know it'll feel like work instead of peace, even if it is not true.
- I played a TC game on Saturday when I told myself I'd paint, and now there's a guilt layer on top of everything.
In my job, i create products, (Software solutions mostly) I was planning on building something around this problem, an app that looks for the patterns instead of judging you for them. But before I write a single line of code, and waste precious time that I... could use to paint... I want to understand other people's version of this problem is.
What actually stops you? Not in theory, we all heard the same excuses all the time, what happened last week when you didn't sit down to paint?