Weird Question (Sorry everyone)
Hi, sorry if this is an odd question. I’m very new to Christianity / the Episcopal Church and have been thinking about attending a service for the first time.
Heres an unnecessary amount of information about me (that none of you wanted): I have severe anxiety, trauma, and sensory issues (autism). Unfamiliar public places are extremely overwhelming and stressful for me.
Getting to the problem part, weed is one of the few things that reliably helps with all of that enough to function in situations that are difficult for me. The problem is that being high in church feels very wrong and disrespectful. Like something you’re obviously not supposed to do. But I also genuinely don’t know if I could handle going sober right now.
I’m not trying to be disrespectful AT ALL, I actually care a lot, which is why I have been extremely anxious about this. So from an Episcopal perspective, would this be seen as genuinely wrong/insensitive? I don't want to attend if HOW I attend would be disrespectful to God or the congregation.
I'd just rather ask instead of assuming and be inconsiderate. Thank you guys for any answers you can give me!