Fear
In February I had a blood sugar of 105 (I ate within 2 hours of the test). My weight was 237lbs. Since then, I’ve lost about 20lbs. I thought I was falling the 50/25/25 split right, but all my carbs were problematic (potatoes, and jasmine rices, and rolled/instant oats). It also doesn’t help that I didn’t have a full nights sleep for months (family reasons), been inconsistent with workouts (I did try to get 10,000 steps a day and I achieve that for the most part), and lacked the discipline to avoid sweets as much as I should’ve been at the time.
In July, I felt my legs feeling weak at certain points, my headaches (at a few point as I walk it felt my body was about to slant). I would feel hungry after eating a meal within 2 hours sometimes (frozen veggies, jasmine rice, and chicken), Then there’s the sensation/pressure that comes around my eyes sometimes.
I’m getting test this Thursday, but I won’t get results until later. How do I calm myself mentally no matter what happens to me ?
I feel like an idiot who tried to fight against my fate due to family history, only to fall short because I’m a failure/loser, like how it’s always been