u/CelebrationNo2790

Asking for prayers. Thank you.

Hello everyone, I'm 23 and feeling lost in life. I am also having trouble finding employment. I don't know what to do.

My roommates are rude to me and don't clean up and the house is always a mess even tho I try to keep up with cleaning it. I have no where else to go and I can't find a job. I was previously homeless for five years and I don't wanna go back out to the streets to have some peace. I asked my family but they're unable to help. I feel so exhausted, If I could find a job I'd be able to find my own place so I could be alone. I've been praying for months for help but nothing has changed.,o feel like I cant breathe and I'm tired of being made fun of and provoked by my roommates. I have no friends to turn to either. I feel like I'm being attacked left and right. I wanna have hope but I feel like there is none. I am grateful I have God but I feel so alone here at this place. I want to have my own space so I can relax and keep a clean space. I hate living in dirty places and having to constantly clean up someone's mess. I've had many conversations with my roommates about these issues and they don't take me seriously. They don't mind the mess or the chaos but I grew up in a violent house and had a lot of horrible things done and said to me as a child until I turned 18 and ran away. I was homeless for five years after that, while homeless I completed job corps and once I finished I was back on the street struggling to find a home. I haven't been able to find a job even though I've applied to countless positions. I feel so alone and I wonder if God is angry at me and is punishing me. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so uncomfortable and exhausted. I need advice on how to grow closer with God so I can rise above this pain. I don't wanna live like this anymore.