i miss my life.
hello. on may 4th, 2026, i broke the side of my foot while playing basketball by landing on uneven pavement wrong. at the time, i was 15, three days from turning 16! and like, my plans were - to finally get a job, (im homeschooled and have been since 3rd) so to finally also get away from the house after like 8 years of being held back from the real world and being isolated with only pretty much online interaction. so yeah, about 5-7 years of planning that since i was really young, were ruined. so ive been more stuck than i ever have been before, because atleast before i could go outside and run around and play, to get away from this isolating place, but now? im really just stuck. my mental health has been terrible too, a lot of thoughts of.. yknow? and everything just hurts. taking a shower is a nightmare, getting up and walking is a nightmare because im scared im gonna injure or reinjure both my feet. it feels like covid 2.0. and my dad makes snarky remarks because im gaining weight, because i cant cook my own food, and have to rely on my mom, which im thankful for. plus, pretty much no exercise from laying in bed all day. (i was like 125 before, but now like probably 156? if i had to guess.) and it leads back to my clothes not fitting and im too embarrassed to tell my parents that they don't fit anymore because the fear of being laughed at. i just want my life back. at 4 weeks, ortho told me to go from nwb to some weight, and then at 8 weeks and 4 days, he told me to wait till next week to start putting my pull 100% (with the boot) on my other foot, (im scared.) but i have to do it. and then i go back july 30th to hopefully get my foot back. dont get my wrong, im glad to know for certain when i can finally walk again but its a process. the days, and weeks are a process and i feel like july is gonna be an even longer month than may and june, just because of this process. sigh.