I DID IT! I QUIT MY UNGRATEFUL JOB.
previous post: https://www.reddit.com/r/nursing/comments/1sy9kzk/handled_12_pedia_patients_a_week_ago_and/
You read that right I handed in my immediate resignation. I lasted 3 months in that facility.
The moment I knew I needed to quit this job was when my senior nurse called and got mad that I didn't pick up my phone for the last 3 hours. I was on call and waiting for their call at that time. Unfortunately, her calls didn't come through because reception was bad at where I lived. I then explained to her what had happened. I apologized profusely, then told her that I'll come in ASAP, I'll just get ready and then I'd be there. But no. She scolded me about being responsible, continuity of care, accusing me of not informing ahead so I could get an Emergency Leave for something that wasn't emergent (Like gurl what?). I did not speak the whole time she ranted. When she was done all I told her was "I understand. I'll be going in this afternoon to hand in my resignation". She was about to say something but I ended the call. Cried myself back to sleep. When I woke up, immediately drafted a letter addressed to our Head Department Nurse.
Went to the hospital and gave the letter to said Head Nurse and basically was like I'd like to Bon Voyage ASAP. She tried to then kiss my ass telling me how great of a nurse i was bla, bla, bla. I was like yeah nope not buying that. Then head nurse said that she'll give me the day off tomorrow but please come in the next 3 days else the nurses will be doing 12 hours for those days (we get 8 hour shifts for 5days a week). Felt sorry for my co workers (AKA the nurses and female and male aides who do the actual and not the ones who sit on their assess and expect everyone to do their bidding). I said fine whatever. Did the 3 days and officially said bye to that traumatizing institution.
Currently jobless, but decided to use this year to relax and prep and take the NCLEX. Ever since I started nursing, it has been non stop action. No summer breaks of any sort of kind, clinicals, since 2nd year. Then after graduation did PNLE review then the moment I passed immediately looked for a job, got accepted by said institution, then got fucked around by the workload. This resignation is literally the only time I could wake up and not think about anything nursing. Although, I feel guilty not sticking around longer, I've realized my mental health matters more. I do not wanna end up coping with stress and burnout by negative means. The spark for wanting to do bedside is still there, just not at that godforsaken place who thinks their doctors are Gods and nurses are their peasants, so they treat us like shit.