Family Life is Cooked, how do I fix it?
Hey my fellow wingmen,
Hope your Mother's Day is going better than mine. It is my own opinion that I think the Air Force has officially cooked my relationship with my family especially post deployment. It was already strained but I came back from a deployment a couple months back and now I'm lost. I can't deal with my family anymore. My Dad and Brother's relationship with me wasn't the best in the past couple years since I joined but now... It's totally destroyed and I don't know how to fix it. Every time a fight comes up which it does seemingly every time we talk I just shut down and say "Screw this" and walk away because it's in my eyes it's always a lost cost. My relationship with my Mom is better but I see the gap.
I talk to my Dad about once a week for 15 minutes (if that) and my brother not at all anymore. I used to talk to my Dad twice a week for about an hour or 2 at a time and my brother almost every day. I don't say I miss those days but it's more of the sense of I don't feel anything for those days anymore. It sucks. I feel more for my wingmen with my recent PCS than my own family. I understand Deployments create strong bonds but man did it fuck up a lot of them just the same.
I wouldn't say I had the sorta deployment I think a lot of our guys are dealing with now but Idk. It was relatively peaceful beyond the usual Deployment BS. Idk.
If y'all got an opinion to fix it I'd appreciate it because honestly, I'm half sure of just tossing my relationships with my family and dying alone.
Sincerely,
Airman Sap, Poor
P.S. Sorry for another bitching post of my troubles. I understand, it's a "Cost of the Job".