I crave these moments
alone.
To be me again.
To heal.
Emails, traffic, people
crowd the edges
of my mind.
No.
Not now.
Let me have this.
Then thoughts of you
encroach,
unraveling my calm.
I let them pass.
I just need me
in this moment
to find comfort
in silence.
Blue rolling tunnels
Thunderous, foaming, crashing!
Then the calm, breathe, still.
Forgot my age for a moment
and became a silly girl with a crush
falling for a name on a screen.
How could I fall for you?
You promised nothing
but hinted at it all.
And I should've seen it coming
when the texts stopped.
Why would I cry over that?
It was nothing,
it was everything.
I threw bitter tears at the ocean, but all that came back was the tide.
I was so angry at the world
why show me someone like you
when I couldn't have you?
But the world didn't care.
The cogs of time kept moving
me over here,
you over there,
never meant to be.
Paint dries on the brush
I thought there would still be time
But I am left here
Just dreaming of a future
Where my art will be enough
Let me in your world
I'm falling, body and soul
Longing for release
Bodies entwined, skin caressed
Let me lose myself in you
You left forever
But now you're back with regrets
When my love has gone
These games we play
Keep me entertained
You want more?
Sure we could do that
You know I'm down for that
The riskier the better.
(But I need to feel something)
These games are easy
Teasing's fun
Let me find the right words
To bring you to your knees
(Give me a reason, I'm begging you)
We can get lost in it
You play your part
I'll play mine
Tomorrow's another day,
another game.
(Show me something real, show me your heart)
But you're right,
it's too soon
We're not ready
Get on the bed
Give me your body
Consume me.
(Please... give me a reason...)
In this dark room
Alone with you
I smile without warmth
You study me intently
I look away
Then I feel your touch
Fingertips grazing my hip
Soft, questioning
My body reacts
but my mind shrinks back
I look up at you
Your sad eyes
watching me,
waiting.
I smile again
This time it reaches my eyes
I reach out to you
My hand grazes your thigh
You catch my hand in yours
And pull me close
I’m on your lap
my legs around you
Your arms envelop me
I start to melt.
I focus on your lips
inches away
Then we move as one
And we kiss.
These games we play
Keep me entertained
You want more?
Sure we could do that
You know I'm down for that
The riskier the better.
(But I need to feel something)
These games are easy
Teasing's fun
Let me find the right words
To bring you to your knees
(Give me a reason, I'm begging you)
We can get lost in it
You play your part
I'll play mine
Tomorrow's another day,
another game.
(Show me something real, show me your heart)
But you're right,
it's too soon
We're not ready
Get on the bed
Give me your body
Consume me.
(Please... give me a reason...)
In this dark room
Alone with you
I smile without warmth
You study me intently
I look away
Then I feel your touch
Fingertips grazing my hip
Soft, questioning
My body reacts
but my mind shrinks back
I look up at you
Your sad eyes
watching me,
waiting.
I smile again
This time it reaches my eyes
I reach out to you
My hand grazes your thigh
You catch my hand in yours
And pull me close
I’m on your lap
my legs around you
Your arms envelop me
I start to melt.
I focus on your lips
inches away
Then we move as one
And we kiss.
Dappled sun guides me
Peeking through green forest paths
Blue ocean below.
Enough now my love
No more sad songs, no more tears,
Her arms are waiting
I wish I could let you in.
But there's a fortress around my heart.
I loved once,
with everything in me.
But he left me on read
after he promised me the world
after the sweetest romance
you'd ever imagine.
The pain was unbearable.
So I can't fall again.
My heart barely recovered.
You might think I'm fine.
I smile. I laugh.
But inside me
is a darkness
that will never let you in.
I wish I could let you in.
But there's a fortress around my heart.
I loved once,
with everything in me.
But he left me on read
after he promised me the world
after the sweetest romance
you'd ever imagine.
The pain was unbearable.
So I can't fall again.
My heart barely recovered.
You might think I'm fine.
I smile. I laugh.
But inside me
is a darkness
that will never let you in.